Today i was sat at work doing my stuff, my mp3 player was on shuffle and suddenly a song came up. A song that carries dark and sad memories. i felt like falling on my knees and crying but i couldn’t for obvious reasons. The song reminds me a time when i still lived in a small town called Burton. we lived in this house that i hated so much and the room we lived in made me feel absolutely empty. that room reminds me of fights with a girl that i used to love deeply and maybe i still love her. i don’t know. The song brought me back to this one day when we had the biggest fight and it felt like it’s going to be over with no turning back.. she left the room and i stayed there sat on the mattress crying. It was a huge black hole with ”no light” and now i’m sat in my bed in a different city without her here cause it’s over and this time it’s my fault because i pushed her away. And now i don’t know if any of this is right or wrong. we are not talking anymore but i wish we could. we don’t see each other anymore but i wish we could. I’m not hopeless but i am sad.
I am your anchor you are my burden.